GROW UP. You're not a kiddie anymore.

Today really opened my eyes. I finally slapped myself in the face and asked myself: What the hell are you doing? Ever since senior year started, this question probably has been haunting and nagging me in the back of my subconsciousness. I was thinking throughout the whole time my friends were playing RockBand, and realized I have been lagging behind in school work, missing deadlines entirely, and oversleeping, which results of me missing school. These failures have never happened before. I have been always on top of my work; staying up late and actually finishing the assignment that is due the next day, no matter how much sleep I lost. Now, it's like I don't even try. I value sleep over my grades and my future. I anger my mom more. I skip my tutoring job. Why?! For what purpose?! I even became lazy in church. CHURCH. Skipping discipleship?! How can I possibly even ALLOW that to happen?! I used to be consistent and committed to going to Sunday School. How is this different? I value sleep more than God?! WHAT?! I'm a youth leader for goodness sakes.

That's it. I'm putting my foot down and drawing a line. Actually, more like resorting out my priorities. There is no way I'm allowing this to continue. I have to fulfill my responsibilities and take charge of my actions. I have to thank Emily Tu, my patient and absolutely awesome accountability partner/mentor, for putting up with a ridiculous loser like me. I pray that I can be better accountability partner for her sake. I know now that I can't get away with things without facing the consequences. I'm sorry for being so stupid. My thoughts and priorities must be resorted and be held firmly in place, relentless and unwavering.

PRIORITIES

1. GOD/Spirituality
2. Friends&Family
3. School Work/Grades
4. Job/Money
5. Self
6. Dating/Boys
7. Luxury

THINGS TO DO TO MAKE THIS HAPPEN

• WAKE UP in time and not be late (PUNCTUALITY)
• FIND a Study/Homework Buddy and actually STUDY
  
• STOP skipping work
• FULFILL my promises
  
• NO procrastination

I hope this works. I really do have to change for the better.