snow days.

Today was like a wish come true! Last night, the meteorologists were predicting the biggest snowstorm of the year and we, the students of NYC, were wishing wholeheartedly that schools were canceled. I tried to stay up until 3 am, which is when they usually announced that public schools are closed, but I was not able to resist the sweet rest that sleep offered me. I complied and suddenly at 6:30am, my ringtone woke me up and it was my friend calling to tell me that school was closed! WOOT!

Snow days are awesome, but winter has dragged on too long. I can not wait until the warm sun's rays shine on my face, t-shirt and shorts wearing body, and flipflop attired feet. Sorry Winter, but you gotta let Spring have some stage time too.

My plans for warm weather are to start exercising again and putting my rec center membership back into use. In the winter, only relying on school gym is not enough. Plus all that stress from midyears, college applications and school work got me eating more, which is definitely not helping. When it's warm again, I'm going to use my new running sneakers to jog or bike. Maybe swim once awhile too. As well as go to the gym. I'll play any of you in basketball. Or maybe we can all get together and have a volleyball or badminton game. I've also wanted to sign up for a kick boxing class. Basically lose weight, get fit, and tone up. Haha.

First step. buy sneakers. Shopping, anyone? ;D

drabble #1: open or closed?

It was always this way with her. She was far too open with her heart for her own good. Whether it was love or friendship, she gave her all. She didn’t know how to hold back and wait for the right moment; she just rushed right on in and laid all her cards on the table: too naïve to realize that it was not always practical to do so, and too trusting to believe that she might get hurt. Hurt she did get though, and her foolish romance was a testament to that. It was what made her so vulnerable to the world. She was just too passionate and open, and now her sincerity and honesty had gotten her hurt again.

throbbing brain cells

Today started with it being one of the worst mornings ever. I think cleaning the toilet or having my 3 most hated things wake me up probably are the highest on my list, but today's morning has got to be up there with them. It started last night. A throbbing of my head grew to a major full blown headache. It was so bad I slept at 9pm to try to sleep it off. 9pm! That's probably the earliest I've slept since middle school! (Not counting the time I wanted to take a nap at 5pm and wounded up waking up at 5am the next morning with no recollection of my sister or mother trying to wake me up. in my defense, I had at all-nighter the night before.)

The next morning, when I woke for school at 6ish am, the dreadful headache survived the night. It was impossible to get out of bed, let alone attempt to pay attention in class. So, I skipped school. woot. Then, Edmond came. Edmond is this 3 year old kid my mom babysits in the apartment building next to our's. She comes back to our apartment around noon-ish to prep for dinner since she doesn't have time later. And she bring Edmond along. Don't get me wrong, I love Edmond. I love kids in general. But that morning, I was not in the mood of being woken up by a hyper 3 year old boy that craves for attention, jumping on my bed and nagging me to let Thumper out of her cage. Totally not helping, dude.

So, I popped some ibuprofen pills and dragged my butt out of bed. Yeah, not fun. I had a whole bunch of work to make up and 3 tests tomorrow. oh joy. I have been getting more headaches, migraines, and sicknesses lately. I blame stress. School work, Advanced Placement courses, college decisions, and just life in general. It's a challenge I'll just have to overcome and summer fun will just be my prize.

On a better note, at least tomorrow is Friday! awesome! And I was able to fix my internet without the help of the useless Verizon techies! Proudest moment ever. I was also taking a break on my work -cough-procrastinating-cough- and was looking up my favorite car brand, Mustang. Oh man, so fricking pretty and fast. Best combination in a car. Right now I want a Mustang Shelby Coupe GT500 Premium. Blue with the White Vista Stripe and Black Interior. Awesomeness.

That's not the car, but it's still absofrickinglutely cool. :D

Love is Here by Tenth Avenue North

Come to the waters, you who thirst and you'll thirst no more.
Come to the father, you who work and you'll work no more.
And all you who labor in vain and to the broken and shamed:

Love is here.
Love is now.
Love is pouring from
His hands, from his brows.
Love is near, it satisfies.
Streams of mercy flowing from his side.
'Cause love is here.

Come to the treasure, you who search and you'll search no more.
Come to the lover you who want and you'll want no more, no.
And all you who labor in vain and to the broken and shamed,

Yeah:

Love is here.
Love is now.
Love is pouring from his hands, from his brows.
Love is near, it satisfies.
Streams of mercy flowing from his side.

Yeah

And to the bruised and fallen,
Captives, bound, and broken hearted.

He is the lord
He is the lord,
Yeah

By his stripes he's paid our ransom
From his wounds we drink salvation

He is the lord
He is the lord

Love is here.
Love is now.
Love is pouring from his hands, from his brows.
Love is near,
It satisfies.
Streams of mercy flowing from his side.
Streams of mercy flowing from his side.
'Cause love is here
Love is here.

I DESPISE the rain.

The rain, Mr. Headache, and Mrs. Cramps ambushed me. They all ganged up on me and I was left on my bed, trying to sleep the pain off. Yeah, so every thing is just plain peachy.

Wow, I sound like a grouch.

On a better note, I officially gained an big brother. Officially because I asked and clarified it with him. I always wanted a big brother. Yay! People -cough-peony&michelle-cough- have told me that having an older brother is not that big of a deal, but I think the fact that not ever having a reliable male figure in my life, might have scarred me a bit. This is definitely different than what I'm used to. I hoping to gain about brother. I'll have to ask him later on though. Not yet. I have to work on the whole trusting guys thing. Don't get me wrong, I have a ton of guy friends. Just nothing on this level. I'll keep you guys posted.

Now or Never - List of Things to Do Before I Die (:

1. Witness something truly majestic
2. Learn, then buy, a Motorcycle
3. Have a pet dog named Ripley
4. Vacation in Europe
5. Get a Tattoo
6. Laugh Until I Cry
7. Meet my Grandchildren and (possibly GreatGrandChildren)
8. Drive a Mustang and/or Rolls Royce
9. Master the Guitar and move on to play Electric and Bass
10. Learn a new language to be fluent
11. See a shooting star/meteor shower
12. Create my own food dish
13. See the end of Human Trafficking
14. Visit all the 7 World Wonders
15. Fold 1000 cranes to give someone a wish
16. Shave a head bald
...to be continued

GROW UP. You're not a kiddie anymore.

Today really opened my eyes. I finally slapped myself in the face and asked myself: What the hell are you doing? Ever since senior year started, this question probably has been haunting and nagging me in the back of my subconsciousness. I was thinking throughout the whole time my friends were playing RockBand, and realized I have been lagging behind in school work, missing deadlines entirely, and oversleeping, which results of me missing school. These failures have never happened before. I have been always on top of my work; staying up late and actually finishing the assignment that is due the next day, no matter how much sleep I lost. Now, it's like I don't even try. I value sleep over my grades and my future. I anger my mom more. I skip my tutoring job. Why?! For what purpose?! I even became lazy in church. CHURCH. Skipping discipleship?! How can I possibly even ALLOW that to happen?! I used to be consistent and committed to going to Sunday School. How is this different? I value sleep more than God?! WHAT?! I'm a youth leader for goodness sakes.

That's it. I'm putting my foot down and drawing a line. Actually, more like resorting out my priorities. There is no way I'm allowing this to continue. I have to fulfill my responsibilities and take charge of my actions. I have to thank Emily Tu, my patient and absolutely awesome accountability partner/mentor, for putting up with a ridiculous loser like me. I pray that I can be better accountability partner for her sake. I know now that I can't get away with things without facing the consequences. I'm sorry for being so stupid. My thoughts and priorities must be resorted and be held firmly in place, relentless and unwavering.

PRIORITIES

1. GOD/Spirituality
2. Friends&Family
3. School Work/Grades
4. Job/Money
5. Self
6. Dating/Boys
7. Luxury

THINGS TO DO TO MAKE THIS HAPPEN

• WAKE UP in time and not be late (PUNCTUALITY)
• FIND a Study/Homework Buddy and actually STUDY
  
• STOP skipping work
• FULFILL my promises
  
• NO procrastination

I hope this works. I really do have to change for the better.