RAGE ATTACK! ROAR! >:(

Ugh. I CAN'T DEAL WITH HER ANYMORE! I can't stand a person who is such a LIAR. Why can't she get her FACTS STRAIGHT before babbling her BIG FAT MOUTH. Now, were a a situation began because of HER. And now she's blaming ME? YOU'VE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME. It's not my fault she's not more conscious of the health of her children. I don't sleep for 12 hours straight on PURPOSE. I normally can't even do 8 hours, let alone 12! I'm not pretending to be coughing or sneezing or sniffling or losing my voice. Now my tutoree's mom thinks I'm a liar and a lazybum. How am I supposed to face the mom now? And SHE refuses to tell the mom the truth and is blaming me for the situation. She's saying everyone's going to know your true personality. what kind of garbage is that?! Sorry, but I act exactly how my heart and brain tells me. This IS my true self. Everyone know my true self. I know I'm weird, annoying, and whiny sometimes. But everyone has seen that already and I've accepted that as well. The only thing that is bothering me is that she is not admitting to her own mistake. What am supposed to do now?! arghs.

Umbrella - ella - ella -a

It's 1AM. I'm sitting here. Work is splayed out in front of me on my desk. My thermos of coffee is steaming. ready for the night ahead. Not even just a cup, a freaking THERMOS full of coffee. And I'm typing this instead of doing homework. LOL.

Actually, I don't really like coffee. I grew out of my obsession, or more correct term, addiction to it. I like tea more. It comes in more flavors and is so much more healthier for you. They contain more antioxidants and herbal ingredients. My favorite is probably Green Tea.

FYI, drinking coffee when you have a cold is a BIG no-no. Anyways, that was a total tangent of what I wanted to say. Haha.

Today, when I was walking home after getting of the bus, I had my Zune on, my neon orange earphones plugged into my ears, and an umbrella in my hand, shielding me from the rain. I was listening to Qwerty by Linkin Park. (Awesome Intro Instrumental, btw.) If you never listened to Qwerty or any Linkin Park song, they're a bit....emo. LOL. They sing (or scream half the time) about hardships in life. (They were my favorite band in middle school...yeah. ^^;) I clearly remembering listening and focusing on the lyrics of the song. Qwerty is about living and hiding behind lies. It brought up a couple bad memories from the past, and then the most weirdest thing happened. I must have had a grimace or a sad expression on my face, but a total random dude walks by me and says, "You shouldn't be sad. You look prettier when you're happy. Don't be sad!" At that time, I was looking at my feet, so my head shot up, I stopped walking and turned around to see who said it. I was like "o.o? wtf?" But all I saw was people walking past me on both sides. I'm not completely 100% absolutely sure he was saying it to me, though....

drabble #2: tomorrow is today

I have a picture of you. I look at it every night before bed, and I think that tomorrow I’ll get you to like me. Tomorrow you won’t snap at me, you won’t see me as not good enough. Tomorrow, I think, I’ll get you to smile at me like you do in that picture. Tomorrow I’ll let you know I love you, and tomorrow you’ll love me back. But tomorrow has been almost seven years, and I’m so tired of waiting for tomorrow. So I think I’m going to tell you today.

you got some anger issues, dude.

Ugh... the past two days have been terrible! Not entirely, I still enjoyed them somewhat, but...arghs, there has been somethings that irritate me to the extreme. RAWR. :X

Firstly, there is this completely RUDE DUMB UNDERCLASSMEN GIRL that is incredibly obnoxious and thinks the world revolves around her completely empty skull. Her mouth is an unstoppable machine and she has such an annoying voice. She bother other people that she doesn't know and she just won't sit her fricking butt on the seat! There are people that just want a nice and peaceful ride back home after a long agonizing day of school.

And then, in English (my worst subject btw), the teacher is randomly picking on students to check if they read the chapter(s) he assigned, and if he catches you didn't read it, then he writes your name and calls home. wtfreak. Extremist Alert. So, I knew that this was gonna happen because he's been in a really pissy mood lately, so I read. Heck, I even gave up my lunch period to read the stupid book. So, during class, he calls on random people and asks them questions. Im listening and raising my hand to answer each question because, duh, I read it. But then he calls on me and gives me a question that absolutely stumped me. His question was relating to puppies or dogs or some what not, and I'm clueless because I have no recollection of anything related to it in the chapters that were assigned. So, I truthfully said that I did not remember reading anything like that in the text, and he writes me up. But other people were confused because there wasn't any mentioning of dogs or puppies or whatever in the the chapters he was testing us. But he was like "If you did the reading, you would've known the answer. Something really harsh is done to them." Plus the worst thing is, he does not negotiatable or he will make things worse than they were. WTF.

(sorry for venting on you guys ^^;)

snow days.

Today was like a wish come true! Last night, the meteorologists were predicting the biggest snowstorm of the year and we, the students of NYC, were wishing wholeheartedly that schools were canceled. I tried to stay up until 3 am, which is when they usually announced that public schools are closed, but I was not able to resist the sweet rest that sleep offered me. I complied and suddenly at 6:30am, my ringtone woke me up and it was my friend calling to tell me that school was closed! WOOT!

Snow days are awesome, but winter has dragged on too long. I can not wait until the warm sun's rays shine on my face, t-shirt and shorts wearing body, and flipflop attired feet. Sorry Winter, but you gotta let Spring have some stage time too.

My plans for warm weather are to start exercising again and putting my rec center membership back into use. In the winter, only relying on school gym is not enough. Plus all that stress from midyears, college applications and school work got me eating more, which is definitely not helping. When it's warm again, I'm going to use my new running sneakers to jog or bike. Maybe swim once awhile too. As well as go to the gym. I'll play any of you in basketball. Or maybe we can all get together and have a volleyball or badminton game. I've also wanted to sign up for a kick boxing class. Basically lose weight, get fit, and tone up. Haha.

First step. buy sneakers. Shopping, anyone? ;D

drabble #1: open or closed?

It was always this way with her. She was far too open with her heart for her own good. Whether it was love or friendship, she gave her all. She didn’t know how to hold back and wait for the right moment; she just rushed right on in and laid all her cards on the table: too naïve to realize that it was not always practical to do so, and too trusting to believe that she might get hurt. Hurt she did get though, and her foolish romance was a testament to that. It was what made her so vulnerable to the world. She was just too passionate and open, and now her sincerity and honesty had gotten her hurt again.

throbbing brain cells

Today started with it being one of the worst mornings ever. I think cleaning the toilet or having my 3 most hated things wake me up probably are the highest on my list, but today's morning has got to be up there with them. It started last night. A throbbing of my head grew to a major full blown headache. It was so bad I slept at 9pm to try to sleep it off. 9pm! That's probably the earliest I've slept since middle school! (Not counting the time I wanted to take a nap at 5pm and wounded up waking up at 5am the next morning with no recollection of my sister or mother trying to wake me up. in my defense, I had at all-nighter the night before.)

The next morning, when I woke for school at 6ish am, the dreadful headache survived the night. It was impossible to get out of bed, let alone attempt to pay attention in class. So, I skipped school. woot. Then, Edmond came. Edmond is this 3 year old kid my mom babysits in the apartment building next to our's. She comes back to our apartment around noon-ish to prep for dinner since she doesn't have time later. And she bring Edmond along. Don't get me wrong, I love Edmond. I love kids in general. But that morning, I was not in the mood of being woken up by a hyper 3 year old boy that craves for attention, jumping on my bed and nagging me to let Thumper out of her cage. Totally not helping, dude.

So, I popped some ibuprofen pills and dragged my butt out of bed. Yeah, not fun. I had a whole bunch of work to make up and 3 tests tomorrow. oh joy. I have been getting more headaches, migraines, and sicknesses lately. I blame stress. School work, Advanced Placement courses, college decisions, and just life in general. It's a challenge I'll just have to overcome and summer fun will just be my prize.

On a better note, at least tomorrow is Friday! awesome! And I was able to fix my internet without the help of the useless Verizon techies! Proudest moment ever. I was also taking a break on my work -cough-procrastinating-cough- and was looking up my favorite car brand, Mustang. Oh man, so fricking pretty and fast. Best combination in a car. Right now I want a Mustang Shelby Coupe GT500 Premium. Blue with the White Vista Stripe and Black Interior. Awesomeness.

That's not the car, but it's still absofrickinglutely cool. :D